Astronaut, Oceanographer, Actor, Teacher…Author?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

What? Grow up? Photo: Kids by gemteck1 (CC BY 2.0)
Photo: Kids by gemteck1 (CC BY 2.0)

What? Grow UP?

I’m sure you’ve been asked the question. I know I have. I wanted to be a great many things when I ‘grew up’. And in the end, I became something even better.

♦ Astronaut.
I’d seen a documentary and thought that would be the coolest job in the world. Only thing is, I don’t deal with inertia well. I’ve been on one roller-coaster ride in my life and that was more than enough. A never to be repeated experience, thank you very much. Plus when I started to learn about space at school, it was interesting but it didn’t grab me. It would have been a hard slog learning all the science involved. It just wasn’t my cup of tea. I was and am, much happier letting the stars of Star Wars, Star Trek and Firefly fly me through their imaginary space.

♦ Oceanographer
If you know me for any length of time, you know I’m a tragic Titanic fanatic. Not the 1997 movie. I was crazy about the Titanic long before that. Since the day my brother received a book by Robert Ballard on the Titanic, for his 11th birthday. He wasn’t that interested, but the second I got my hands on that book, I was hooked. At first it was just the ship, then ship wreaks in general, then oceanic plates, marine life, even down to Hydrothermal Vents and black smokers. The underwater world fascinates me. My attention has long since departed from the extraterrestrial and fixed itself firmly in the deep. The Titanic will always be a love of mine, but I will watch any documentary, read any book or article on underwater exploration. For all my interest in that world within a world, I never got the chance to study Oceanography. Life had other plans.

♦ Actor
For some reason people never expect shy, introverted kids to like acting. It’s the life for the extroverts. The attention-seekers. The little show offs. So when I saw my first live play (and a musical to boot – Annie) when I was 13, I never thought to ever be on the stage. The very same year, I was allowed to take drama at school. And loved it. I may have been shy, I may have been teased, I may have been uncomfortable in my own skin…but on stage – I wasn’t me. I was a character breathed to life with costumes and lights. It was magical. And apparently I had enough talent and tanacity to make it through all 4 years of high school drama with straight A’s. I signed up for any musical going and became a member of the amateur theatre company. I never got the leads, but I always got the roles I auditioned for. And once I got a minor lead because with ten days to go the actor pulled out, and the director know I could learn the lines in time, and hit it out of the ball park. Which…cough….I did.  (Actually, come to think of it…that happened three times. I got minor leads because other people pulled out at the last minute. )
The first time my husband saw me, I was on stage. He said I wasn’t the prettiest girl there, but I was the most magnetic. I owned that stage, and he couldn’t take his eyes off me. I love acting. But I haven’t done it in years. Yet again, life took me away from my plans to audition for NIDA, and to have a go at the life of an actor. (Probably, just as well 🙂 )

♦ Teacher
Those that can, do. Those that can’t, teach. That’s what they say. I couldn’t be an Actor, but I could do the next best thing. I could be an English and Drama teacher. That at least, was solid, mostly predicable work. I had plans for it. I had the course picked out, and the university application letters in my hand. I had it all worked out. But again, that little four letter word ‘life’ got in the way. It threw such a huge curve ball, that we ended up moving states, towns, comfort zones, and leaving that particular dream behind.  I could no longer afford the luxury of dreaming about attending university. I needed a job, and it was a case of ‘any job’. Right now.

♦ Admin Officer
And that’s how I started in Admin. Admin was never something I ever dreamed of doing as a kid. I never looked up at the stars imagining that one day I’d work at an office, behind a computer, shuffling papers. But it’s funny how life works out. Since I was in Admin anyway, I did the trade certificates that went with it. So I am a qualified, more than a decade employed, Admin officer. Not an Astronaut, not an Oceanographer, not an actor, not even a teacher. An Admin officer.

Never, never, never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I’d be an Author. Sure I loved reading. Still do. Sure I used to waste time scribbling crappy stories, and pretend interviews with imaginary people on scrap paper and notepads long disappeared. People didn’t write books. Books just magically appeared on the shelves of libraries. Didn’t they?
Then one day I had an idea. I didn’t like how the ending of a show happened, and I complained to my husband.
I said “It should have ended this way.”.
And he said the immortal words. “Well, write it.”
And I did. 8 months later, I had a 102,000 word manuscript and the bug had bitten hard. Nearly nine years after that, I published my first book. I am an Author. For nine years I dreamed I would be, and for 15 months I have been.

It just goes to show. What you think you’re going to be ‘when you grow up’, may never happen. Life has a funny way of putting up road blocks, but at the same time takes you on a journey that leads to places you could never have imagined.


Dreams and the daily grind


Photo: Asleep at the wheel by Aaron Jacobs CC BY-SA 2.0)
Photo: Asleep at the wheel by Aaron Jacobs
(CC BY-SA 2.0)

Ana Spoke recently posted this on her blog – Why dream about tomorrow when you can live it today

I’m happy for her, that she will live the ‘writer’s’ dream. To be a full time writer. At least for six months. I hope it lasts longer than that. This is my dream too. To be a full time writer. In that all elusive ‘one day’, I’m sure I’ll get there.

At the moment I have a full-time job, and I write around that. I also write around a part-time study course and my family. I’m a writer, but I’m a writer on the side. I don’t do a too bad a job of it. After all I’ve got 3 book already published and one nearly there. But living ‘the dream’ around the daily grind can be exhausting. What keeps me going is the notion that I will be a full time writer, someday.

I’m not stupid. I know that dreaming with a plan of ‘someday’ means that more likely than not, the dream will never eventuate. I’ve seen it time and time again. I have my goals. I simply don’t know how long it will take to get there. I’m happy…maybe ‘happy’ isn’t the right word, but I’m…assured in the knowledge that I am taking it one step at a time. On those days when it is all too hard, and the road ahead is too long, I can look behind me and see how far I have come.Read More »

RWDU and back again.

RWDU 2015 Logo
RWDU 2015 Logo

The RWDU conference is over and I did promise to tell you all about it.

It was marvellously exciting for me and I hope I don’t bore you with the blow by blow. I didn’t think I’d remember everything that happened so I wrote on a notepad every chance I got. Some of the tense is present and some is past, depending if I wrote during or after the event.

Here goes.Read More »

Away, away.

Photo: IMG_3196 by Shaun Garrity. CC BY 2.0
Photo: IMG_3196 by Shaun Garrity. CC BY 2.0


I’m going away.
Not for long.
I am going to attend my very first ever Author Event.

I would love to say I’m going as an Author, but in reality, I was too chicken.

I was told about the Readers & Writers Down Under Event last year shortly after the release of Shattered. As a novice Author who had never attended an ‘Author’ event in her life, I was terrified of the idea. I did not know then that Nova (Nephilim Code #1) would be published, or that I would meet so many awesome Authors who would also be attending the event.

Still, I think that playing spectator for the first Author event I attend is going to be great. I’ll get to ‘suss’ out what Authors are doing, how they are doing it, and picking up hints and tips for next year. I’m looking forward to putting faces and voices to the profile pictures and personalities I’ve met over the last few months. Getting to actually met the people who have been giving me advice and encouragement.

And maybe, just maybe…meeting a few people who have read my books.

I’m very, very excited. Like a kid in a toy shop, I won’t know what to look at first, and there’ll be so many lights and colours and all things shiny. At least I hope so.

I’m, very nearly, all packed…and I have all my tickets in a safe place.
MUST not forget the tickets!

So…I’ll catch you on the flip side next week, and we’ll all see how it went.

Wish me luck!

20 Book Marks

Blue books with orange ribbon bookmark
Photo: Bookmark by Quinn Dombrowski. CC BY-SA 2.0


The other day I was looking at bookmarks.

Not an unusual activity when one is visiting a bookshop. For some reason bookmarks are part of the merchandise. Have you ever noticed that?

I suppose what was strange about the excursion was that I started to write down what some of them said. What was even stranger was that the shop assistant didn’t even raise an eyebrow at this random shopper noting down the quips and quotes from their bookmark stand. Perhaps it happens more often than you might think.

Today I thought I’d share some of them with you because…well I don’t know really…because I have them to share perhaps?

So, for your eye-rolling, pun limit testing, groan out loud, mild aww moment, amusement, allow me to present 20 bookmark quotes.Read More »



I have now crossed the threshold from ‘Writer’ to ‘Author’.

Shattered is available now from Amazon.

I’ve been working towards publishing for nine years and this is finally a dream come true. I promise I’m not going to get into any ‘Oscar’ worthy ‘thank you’ speeches but I am so elated right now. And it is only right to celebrate an achievement. I hope that you’ll celebrate with me and … yes I’m going to say it … buy a copy of my book.

Or two!


Or three. Or four. Or… 🙂